A few months ago I made a post on Facebook about working at a new startup, for a company called Real Money. This company so far is still in the making, and has somewhere around ten people working for it. In the beginning it felt like it wouldn’t be a big deal, almost like some volunteer work I did on the side. Truthfully, I wanted to make it look bigger than it really was at the time. Having been laid off before, I wanted to show that I had some things taken care of. I told people some about it, helped Alan (the founder) a bit when I wasn’t doing lanscaping on Weekdays and didn’t think about it too much outside of that.
Though I was committed to working with this startup from home, my actions didn’t really show it. I was just kind of this intern guy that dragged his feet around (figuratively, as I’m just sitting at a computer at home). My relationship to Alan was something between personal and professional; as such, we had an agreement that my involvement in the project was as big or as small as I wanted it to be.

When it came time to really make an effort promote our website, I kicked back with some resistance. Usually not being the type to post status updates other than an announcement for a blog post, I felt bad about promoting on Facebook. Looking back on my past posts on Facebook, it seems as though a lot of them have been asking people to donate to a cause or look at some of my work. Simply put, I’ve gotten used to just asking people for favors online.

This time promoting and posting for my job felt different, as if posting about work was a fine line that I shouldn’t be crossing. Although it seemed noble at first to not mix my personal and professional life, I’ve just come to realize that it just doesn’t sit well with me at all.

Why should I work for something that my shouldn’t know about? If I know that what I do can help someone in a difficult time in their lives, why shouldn’t I tell them about it?

At first, I thought that we were misrepresenting the brand we’re trying to make for ourselves. Not being aware of this, I spoke out against Alan claiming that Real Money so far hasn’t really been representing the things we stand for: being open & genuine, being earnest and being of service to others. Having given our public pages a review and some very minor changes, I decided there wasn’t much to fix. After giving it some more thought, I realized something:

I was actually just mad at myself for not acting. I was just projecting onto him because I wasn’t proactive in representing Real Money myself.

If I wanted this community to be a part of my self-expression, it was silly to think that anyone else would do it for me. Now, after some difficult conversations and attitude adjustments, I see the potential that I have to make this project both a profession and an extension of myself. Although I don’t mainly talk about finance in this blog, the motive for creating this blog and Real Money is largely the same. Both are about confronting real circumstances and sharing them with other people. Confronting them and even sharing those circumstances to others. Both are about moving forward in life and taking action (at least, I try). As far as I know, that’s the same message I’ve been trying to carry out the entire time I’ve been writing this blog. Now I have the opportunity of turning that into something that could have a real tangible (monetary) benefit to people.

Thanks for reading,